Thursday, October 25, 2007

FALLING APART


The world around me is spinning

In a dizzy haze I watch it pass by

It suddenly comes to a screeching halt

And I’m faced with the harsh reality


I wish I was blissfully oblivious

To everything happening around me

But it would only be wishful thinking

‘Cause I’m painfully aware of it all


Sometimes I don’t feel a thing

Numbness becomes ‘the way’ of life

But forcing myself not to feel

Only makes it come back stronger than ever


Feeling the pain over and over again

Doesn’t make it any less

Only makes me want to

Wrap myself with the blanket of numbness again


Nothing matters no more

And the hurt keeps coming back again

When all seems perfect to the world around

I’m losing myself and falling apart…


Saturday, October 13, 2007

DREAMS, ASPIRATIONS AND REALISATIONS…

I sometimes ponder over one of life’s most mysterious elements, ‘TIME’ and something about it makes me think about dreams, aspirations and realizations. Everyone wants a shot at success, but SUCCESS is a tricky affair because no two people want the same thing from life. But for a simple Joe or Jane, the dream graph would be something along the lines of:

When around,

10yrs: one wants to play all day and play some more

18yrs: one thinks about changing the world and living life

to the fullest

30yrs: one wants to get a better job and own the car that’s

on everyone’s mind!

40yrs: one wishes for a happy family

55yrs: one wishes that the kids are well settled

70 yrs: one wishes for a peaceful death

From living ‘in the moment’ to making a difference to wishing for a peaceful death, one wishes for it all.

What astonishes me most is how one keeps settling for lesser goals or how ones aspirations constantly drop. Or probably they don’t, probably one doesn’t really lose track, it could be that ones’ PRIORITIES change! But what happens to those who do not want to compromise on their DREAMS? Are they less content? The big question here is ‘WHAT HAPPINESS REALLY IS?’

Is it about accepting what one has got and working on it or is it about going that extra mile to get what one wants? Is it about compromising or fighting till the end? I don’t even know if LIFE works this way but if it does, I can’t help but wonder where I’d be, which boat would I be traveling in? I guess I’d be LOST IN TRANSITION!!

Friday, October 12, 2007

GOOD OL’CITY BUSES

Each one of us has taken a city bus [CB] at least once in our lives [or has been taking them for sometime or for a long time...].Some of us enjoy traveling in them but more often than not one hears the incessant ranting, cribbing and “bus mein yeh hua…bus mein who hua”.

One reason that’ll most likely top the list of “100 things to hate about CBs” [wonder if anyone can come up with so many reasons…then again, impossible is nothing] has to be that they are CROWDED/JAM PACKED and there isn’t enough place for BACTERIA to move. To top it all, people around can get annoying[er] by the second. Half of them [bus taking citizens] can be categorized under:

THE GOSSIPERS: They can talk about everything on God’s green earth and their general course of conversation starts from movie stars then moves to cricketers and then to ‘which friend of theirs is going around with, having a huge fight with, breaking up with another friend of theirs’.

THE ‘I-don’t-give-a-damn-about-anyone-else’ a.k.a THE RUDE ONES: These I cannot stand them one bit. They either have to shove you [feel like throwing them out of the bus] or have to stomp your foot with all their might [OUCH!!] or just go ahead and put their bags, rather forcefully, on you as it’s their sacred duty or something [um, have you ever heard of a little thing called MANNERS???] and DO NOT apologize!!

THE GROPERS: They are the worst of the lot. Ask any girl and she’ll vouch to having met at least one of these. They do not let any opportunity pass by and it’s disgusting to have to do anything with them.

Another reason that makes an entry in the aforementioned list is the system of allocation of separate seats for men, women, physically challenged people and senior citizens [found in most parts of the country, this is an honorable idea] but the problem is the fact that 9 out of 10 times, it’s not followed which leaves the physically challenged people and senior citizens, more times than we’d like to, standing or having to ask people for seats that belong to them in the first place[People, it’s there for a reason, respect it!!].

Not mentioning the “punctuality” of CBs would equal to not writing on my boooring neighbour’s boooring son’s boooring wedding [that’s another article for another day!]. Coming back to the CBs, all of them have to start within a gap of 3.43 mins [or even lesser] of each other and if you miss these buses, you’ll realize that it’s a bigger mistake than say, disliking chocolate and you’ll be stranded at the stop for a looong time.

Like everything has two facets, not all’s unendurable about CBs. De facto, they can be tres cool to travel around in. Returning to the human species, the other half can be classified into:

THE GOOD NATURED: These are a rarity. They give their seats to those who need it more than them [a small thing it maybe, but a kind gesture nevertheless] and help the others. I once saw a chap paying for someone else’s ticket because the later dint have enough money [again, not a huge deal, but the point is, how many of us would have done it?].

THE TALKERS: These, generally, are strangers that we start conversing with and sometimes end up having an interesting chat with! CBs are also great places to make friends and a lot of these friendships start with convos like these.

THE PECULIAR ONES: These people, if you are one of those people who like observing others, are a treat to watch. They either stand out because they wear clothes that are over the top or because are speaking non-stop on their mobile phones from the moment they get into the buses till they get down [I sometimes wonder if there’s someone on the other side].

Another important purpose that CBs serve, in a world that has become supersonically fast, is that it gives you time to spend by yourself. You can catch up on your reading or listen to songs or think through issues and sort them out. It gives you time to do anything you like without anyone questioning you.

This might sound like taking it a bit too far but CBs actually teach you to become more self-reliant and confident. You handle situations better [where else do you get first hand experience of tackling mean people better? Or not letting others intimidate you?] And the best part is as CBs aren’t really expensive, you get to save a lot of money and spend it on anything you like!!

Bottom line: CBs may not be the most comfortable or the easiest way to get around but they ROCK and I love traveling by THEM!!!

Monday, October 8, 2007

OH WHY OH WHY OH WHY???

Oh why oh why oh why

Aren’t we taken seriously?

Conveniently kids we’re made

And grown ups we’re forced to become


Oh why oh why oh why

Anything we do isn’t good ‘nuff?

There always is something

That hasn’t been achieved or won


Oh why oh why oh why

Aren’t we given our due place?

“You know of not the world’s ways” they say

Let go off us and might as well conquer it!


Oh why oh why oh why

Are our dreams laughed off?

Is it because you think they’re unattainable

Or is it ‘cause you weren’t able to realize yours?


Oh why oh why oh why

Aren’t we given a chance?

All we ask from you

Is to be treated like “US”


Friday, October 5, 2007

WHAT I WANT…

Everyday is a new beginning

A new mask to wear

A new role to play

A new shoe to be filled


What I want

Is lost in the maddening world

Is fighting its battle to be heard

Is begging to be understood


Everyday is a new beginning

A new story heard

A new problem fixed

A new secret kept


What I want

Is no longer a part of the world

Is buried deep inside my soul

Is dead, has died a death of its own!!!


Monday, October 1, 2007

MOMENTS IN LIFE…


Here’s a list of things [in no particular order] that will *hopefully* bring a smile on your face or fill your heart with warm fuzziness or make your day!!

[A/N: This list is a compiled one and it would be wonderful to see it become bigger...So go ahead and leave about things that make you REALLY happy in the comments section…This list would be incomplete without`em…and a BIIIIIG ‘THANK YOU’ to everybody who has contributed to this list and to PRAKASH who helped me edit it!!!]

Seeing a little kid smile [in a way possible only by them].

Finding money [every penny is worth!] in the pockets of old pants.

Seeing a person across the street smiling to him/herself.

'Accidentally' hearing someone say something really nice about you.

Buying yourself a BALLOON! [It really doesn’t matter if you are 8 or 18].

Striking an interesting conversation with a complete stranger in the bus/train.

Finding something [book, photograph, shirt…] that you thought you lost ages ago.

The smell of the first drops of rain.

Your favorite song being played on the radio.

Getting an A+ or 100/100 in an exam.

A friend who isn’t in touch calling to tell you that he/she misses you.

Looking through old photographs.

Playing along and answering ‘the most important’ questions of a kid.

Finding a ‘paper chat’ you had with a friend of yours [in an extremely booooring period] in an old book.

Listening to the pouring rain with your eyes closed.

Thinking about the ‘good ol`school days’.

When someone makes you smile when there are tears in your eyes.

Laughing without a reason till your stomach hurts.

Eating ‘garam jalebi’ and ‘ice cream’ in the rain!

Being truly appreciated for all the hard work you do.

Going for long walks on lonely roads.

Watching cartoons [they rule!!!].

Looking through old birthday cards and slam books.

Smiling when someone around you is [it’s contagious!!!].