Another year goes by...

In a day I turn a year older. And in the past year I…

Had crazy fun.

Discovered the awesomeness of Barney Stinson.

Cheered my team.

Had issues with almost everyone that meant something.

Worked things out with most of them.

Lost myself.

Got into one too many awkward situations.

Watched ridiculous movies.

Gave up when I should have fought a li’l harder.

Blew close to everything I’d earned on shoes.

Traveled.

Did not read or write as much as I’d have liked to.

Re-discovered the awesomeness of food.

Mastered the art of cracking pathetic jokes.

Fell for somebody.

Realized that the ‘fall’ is literal and it’s not just the heart that breaks.

Wrote so many exams, I don’t care anymore.

Got drunk.

Met a few wonderful people.

Had extreme emotions and reactions.

Was a bitch.

Got a wee bit better at French.

Didn’t know where my time disappeared.

Got my driver’s license.

Managed not to kill people on the road.

Found out how strong my support system is.

Realized that one good song can change everything.

Felt blessed.

Found out that even heroes are humans.

Saw myself grow up!

I don’t know if I’ve become wiser and I don’t know if I’ve gotten any better but what I do know is that I wouldn’t have been the same person without each one of them.

Current Mood:Ridiculous

Current Music:Josh Ritter - To the Dogs or Whoever

Blame the ‘Pretty Woman’.

So, I happened to watch 'Pretty Woman' for the bazillionth time the day before and the movie still has the same magic it had the first time I watched it. But there was something different about it this time. At the end of the movie, when Richard Gere misses his flight for Julia Roberts and does-what-he-does-best and they kiss and make up, I did not want it to happen. Because, let’s face it, it DOES NOT happen in the real world. In the real world, people take that flight and go where ever the hell they were supposed to go to or runaway to any place that they can, as long as they can get away from the mess.The Edwards never come back for the Vivans (hooker or no hooker). Then why make gullible people believe that they do? Okay, so the movie never intended for us to believe in happy-endings but when we end up watching countless movies, I guess everybody starts believing in them. A girl’s gotta believe in something. What better than happy-endings, right? WRONG, they don’t exist! Fairy tales don’t either but we always knew that. Then why do we still go ahead, dumping everything we’ve ever been warned about, and wish for them to be real? Maybe that just comes with being human, a desire for the perfect end. Or maybe it’s just a load of bullshit and an absolute waste of anything worthwhile! Maybe we should blame 'Pretty Woman' for making us delusional and building a bubble around us but thanks to the real-life-Edward Lewis' all around us, the bubble has long been burst and we’re back to watching '10 Things I Hate About You' (strictly for the title) with chocolate and a bowl of ice cream.
Amen :|

Current Mood: Exhausted
Current Music: Sussie Suh - All I Want

The thing we know as ...

The first thing I noticed about him,
The one thing that I cannot seem to get out of my head,
The one thing I'm going to steal from him,
The one thing that'll forever remind me of him,
The thing we know as shoelace,
And it was RED :)

"And then I went right back to staring at his shoelaces like they held all the secrets of the universe and answered every question of mine."

Shawshank, Save Me!

When Andy Dufresne said "Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies," I believed him and when Red said "I find I'm so excited, I can barely sit still or hold a thought in my head. I think it's the excitement only a free man can feel, a free man at the start of a long journey whose conclusion is uncertain. I hope I can make it across the border. I hope to see my friend, and shake his hand. I hope the Pacific is as blue as it has been in my dreams. I hope,"I wanted to cry.
I'm dangerously close to losing that hope right now and for once, Shawshank isn't helping :(

L. O. V. E. D r u n k - 11 in 11!

19th Jan, 2010

The Moldy Peaches - Anyone Else But You

Your part time lover and a full time friend/The monkey on the back is the latest trend/Don't see what anyone can see/In anyone else but you/We both have shiny happy fits of rage/I want more fans, you want more stage/Don't see what anyone can see/In anyone else but you.I'm always tryin to keep it real/Now I'm in love with how you feel/I don't see what anyone can see/In anyone else but you.

20th Jan, 2010

Anna Nalick - Forever Love

When you smile with those eyes/Baby it's like you place a finger on my heart/And I must get me out/For so many memories we've yet to make/God don't send to me your angels/I just wanna hear you say again/Forever love say you'll love/Dígame, Dígame/Tell me so I can hold you in my soul/And if I go I'll know.

21th Jan, 2010

Aqualung - Good Times Gonna Come

You came to me from nowhere/With nothing and no-one/Hold tight, hold tight, hold tight/Goes to show you never really know it's alright, it's alright, it's alright/'Round the bend/The sun is in the sky it's starting to look like/It's gonna be, yeah, it's gonna be/A bright beautiful day/Yeah, the good times gonna come, oh no/The good times gonna come.

22nd Jan, 2010

Adele - To Make You Feel My Love

When the rain is blowing in your face/And the whole world is on your case/I would offer you a warm embrace/To make you feel my love/The storms of rage are rolling wild and free/Down that highway of regret/The wind of change is blowing wild and free/But you aint seen nothing like me yet/I know you haven't made your mind up yet/I would never do you wrong/I've known it from the moment that we met/There's no doubt in my mind where you belong.

23rd Jan, 2010

Jordin Sparks - See My Side

I've been trying for days to think of a way/To find the words to make sense/Of how we behave/We know how things can get crazy/When we go ablaze/We just get carried away/Believe me, I know/Sometimes the stunts that we pull Don't even make sense/But I was never the one to feel that resent/This ain't 'bout who's to blame/So please just hear me out/See my side and I'll see yours better.

24th Jan, 2010

Cardigans - Love Fool

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem/You love me no longer, I know/And maybe there is nothing/That I can do to make you do/Mama tells me I shouldn't bother/That I ought to stick to another man/A man that surely deserves me/But I think you do/Lately I have desperately pondered/Spent my nights awake and I wonder/What I could have done in another way to make you stay/Reason is not key to solution/I will end up lost in confusion/I don't care if you really care/As long as you don't go/I can't care 'bout anything but you...

25th Jan, 2010
James Morrison - The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore

I've been twisting and turning/In a space that's too small/I've been drawing the line and watching it fall/You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart/Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart/Well I can't explain why it's not enough/‘Cause I gave it all to you/And if you leave me now/Oh just leave me now/It's the better thing to do/It's time to surrender/It's been too long pretending/There’s no use in trying/When the pieces don't fit anymore/Pieces don't fit here anymore.

26th Jan, 2010

Green Day – 21 Guns

Do you know what's worth fighting for?/When it's not worth dying for?/Does it take your breath away/And you feel yourself suffocating?/Does the pain weigh out the pride?/And you look for a place to hide?/Did someone break your heart inside?/You're in ruins/When you're at the end of the road/And you lost all sense of control/And your thoughts have taken their toll/When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul/When it's time to live and let die/And you can't get another try/Something inside this heart has died/You're in ruins.

27th Jan, 2010
Bethany Joy Lenz - Ophelia

Woe is me, something dramatic like I could be/Oh, my love/Oh alas, this has been such a sad affair/Such a sad affair/Well here I go again/I’m sinking in my faithlessness and fear/Oh, I’m turning over will/And I’m cleaning up this holy mess I made/Everything’s fine/Everything’s okay/Everybody loves a fool/Everybody walks away.

28th Jan, 2010

Nelly Furtado – All Good Things

Honestly, what will become of me?/I don't like reality/It's way too clear to me/But really life is dandy/We are what we don't see/We miss everything daydreaming/I want to pull away when the dream dies/The pain sets it and I don't cry/I only feel gravity and I wonder why/Flames to dust/Lovers to friends/Why do all good things come to an end?

29th Jan, 2010

Boys Like Girls - Love Drunk

Top down in the summer sun/The day we met was like a hit and run/And I still taste it on my tongue/I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover/I love you forever, forever is over/All the time I wasted on you/All the bullshit you put me through/I'm checking into rehab 'cause everything that we had/Didn't mean a thing to you/I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover/I love you forever, but now I'm sober.

And the track that sums it up...

Jack Johnson - Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Well I was sitting, waiting, wishing/You believed in superstitions/Then maybe you'd see the signs/The Lord knows that this world is cruel/I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool/Learning lovin' somebody don't make them love you/Must I always be waiting, waiting on you/Must I always be playing, playing your fool/Maybe you've been through this before/But it's my first time so please ignore/The next few lines cause they're directed at you.

I keep playing your part/But it's not my scene/Want this plot to twist/I've had enough mystery/Keep building it up/Then shooting me down/But I'm already down/Well, if I was in your position/I'd put down all my ammunition/I'd wonder why'd it taken me so long/Must I always be waiting, waiting on you/Must I always be playing, playing your fool.

No, I can't I always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool.

Fucking Finally!

A lot of things seem to be happening off late. Some of them falling into place to complete the puzzle and some of them leaving a whole new puzzle open. From feeling like nothing around me bothered me enough to affect me (Strangely, my brain ceased to respond to stimuli, which I still feel sometimes and it’s a rather reassuring feeling. You know things are falling apart but your bubble is somehow protecting you from everything) to doing things that I’d normally run away from or wouldn’t make an effort to do anything about has left me with a new rush!

Last weekend was one of the most satisfying weekends I’ve had in a long long time. I passed my Driver’s Licence Test (finalllly!!!!) and got my driver’s licence in the mail yesterday. The whole process of going to a driving school-waiting everyday for a chance to drive-giving the test unsuccessfully-going back again-giving the test successfully was basically all I did in my vacation. It was also something I wouldn’t have done, if left to me. Nonetheless, I’m glad it’s over! My new mantra when I’m down these days is to remind myself that I’ve passed the test and do not have to go to an RTA until 2029 again. Seems to be working until now! Think of it, what’s the big deal about it? People get their licence everyday. But I guess it was one of those personal demons of mine that I’ve fucking finally conquered.

I can partially cross one item (17. Run a marathon.) off my wish list because of something I did the next day. I took part in the Hyderabad 10K Run. It wasn’t technically a marathon, and I for one, did not run. But it felt great anyway. Kinda like I’ve done something that I probably would have let go without even trying. Entering into it without any kind of practise and hogging in McDonalds right after that weren’t probably the best things to do before and after it, but meh! I fucking DID IT!!!!! Walking for over 13 kms that day did not do anything for my legs the next day though! :|

I also finally got around to buying my ACGs. Changed loyalty to Reebok and blew up most of what I’d earned on them. I haven’t completely fallen in love with them though, at least not yet. I’m hoping someday I will, I know I will. Buying them finally after postponing over and over again was good enough! Also voted in the municipal elections and it was my second time voting. The rush of the first time was missing but the fact that I voted was enough to compensate the mad excitement.

The winter is finally here. Feels like winter in Hyderabad after a really long time, could also have something to do with me leaving home by 6:30 every morning. But I’m absolutely enjoying it thanks to the fact that I’m getting to stay out most days after it starts getting chilly. In the whole ‘doing-new-things’, I almost forgot something that I won’t get to do ever again. Obsess over CRIMINAL MINDS like only a first-timer can. That show is fucking genius!! Wish there were other people who appreciated it the way I do, but I’m so in love with it and the characters that I think I’ve enough love to suffice for the rest of the world. There were so many times in between when I thought I couldn’t watch it further and one time when I needed someone else with me just to go ahead (Nithya, you saved my life. Long live Jason Gideon!). People around me thought I needed help, maybe I did need help, but I’m glad I did what I did.

There’s something else that’s finally coming to an end: Threshold 2 at Alliance Française. Sometimes, feels like I’ve been going to the classes for forever and the other times, I hardly remember attending them. Nevertheless, one more exam tomorrow and I’m done with it. I’m going to maybe miss the class somewhere but since I’m planning on joining the next level, I most definitely will not miss Ajey Balaji! That man is amazing, works harder than all of us combined. I think I’m kinda obsessed with him too. I talk about him more than I talk to him. Is that reason for worry? I’m hoping not. I just respect him way too much.

Just when I was thinking I wouldn’t have as much fun this weekend, I was very happily proved wrong! A message at 7 in the morning followed by a phone call and an impromptu plan made sure Karuna and I had a fan-fuckin-tastic time like only the two of us can have! Shilparamam-another pair of chappal (I’ve never felt more girly in my life)-searching for kulfi and not finding it-walking like that’s all we were born to do, lunch at 10D (Woman, you have no idea how much I love you!) and painting my toenails yellow!! Could the day get any better, I think not.

True to style, it took me more than a week to update the blog. I’ve been wanting to do it since I passed the test (:D :D:D) and so much more has happened in between. I’m glad I waited, got back to writing and probably my longest post is finally here.

Current Music: Iraj&Ranidu-Mata Aloke Genadevi
Current Mood: Beaming :)

Yes And NOOO :|

Yes, change is inevitable.
No, you don't have to like it.
FUCK YOU!